Summer comes around & taunts me every… single… year! The idea of wearing less clothes yet having the same amount of fat is not something I look forward to. I love the gram all winter but tend to post less & less during the summer simply because my confidence has a lot to do with how I look.
That is just not ok, at least not for me.
Self love should not be based off of physical appearance because my whole self is not only my outer self. I am still funny, kind, intelligent, compassionate, creative, even in the summer. So my ability to love myself should flow from those things.
Once April comes around the pressure is on, the insecurity rises, the frustration begins. I tend to become obsessed with my weight.
You guys my body has housed 3 humans. It has birthed them, nursed them, & now raising them on very little energy. My body is healthy & strong & able to do many things. My body is not to be looked down upon or compared to another. It is mine & I like who I am!
We are woman & that, sis, is beautiful. Woman is the definition of beauty & the diversity we each bring to the table makes it even more dope. We do not attain value simply based on outer beauty, even during bathing suit season. God gave us value the day He gave us life. When I sit down to talk with someone I just know they are not choosing to be in my presence because of the number on the scale. I hope they stick around because everything that I am inside seeps out before them through my love towards them.
So, No more obsessing over how much my belly still pokes out… I’m wearing the bathing suit. No more being miserable in the heat just to cover some stretch marks… I’m buying the tank tops & halters. No more giving my physical appearances higher regard than the woman God has made me to be… I’m loving myself. My whole self. & it is ok with me that right now, there’s a little extra to love.